Hmmm.. my love story with Him started when I was in Junior High School.
How come it be? When I was in elementary school I was (not wanna be arrogant
yea ^^) a smart student. I always be a candidate if there were a competition.
But then, suddenly when the Fire Country attacked, everything change..
buahahaha
My junior high school was the best school in my city, my class also the
best (in Indonesia they say it “Kelas Unggulan”). So you can guess it that
every student in my class is the best student. It made have a tight
competition. I never became the best 5 in my class, this made me very sad. But
I never give up, I hope that someday I can be the number one. I always try and
try and try, beside that I give all my dreams to God, I depended on Him. I
prayed every night, I read bible everyday, I praised him everytime, I went to
the church, and be a nice girl. I couldn’t get the best rank in my class, but
praised to God, finally my score can be the best score for the National Exam,
not only in my school, but also in my city. Three years walked with Him is the
most beautiful moment in my life. As Psalms 126 : 5 said “They that sow in
tears shall reap in joy.”
Then in the Senior High School, everything’s good. I always had a good
score in class n joined a lot of champion and also become the winner (some of
them only.. ahahahha). Everything fine till the graduated time. I couldn’t
passed my favorite college that I’d dreams for so many time. I trapped in the
college that I’ve never know. I were very dissapointed to God, everything seems
cold, I even didn’t have a spirit to live.
But then, I thank to God that he gave me a good partnership here. I can
learn so many things about Him through daily devotion, bible study, and also
small group. First year here, I have a good relation with God. I walked with
Him everyday, praised Him, prayed to Him, talked to Him, and do everything with
Him. We’re such a romantic couple, always together everywhere and everytime
(suit... suit.. :D ).
Moreover I have so many friends that always support me when I almost
fall and also a good enviroment. But then in second years, when everything
seems blurred and unclear about my future after graduated because of so many
hazy rule, I felt very sad. It affected my spirit to have a good relation with Him, my study,
my social intercourse, even my whole live (lebayyyyy).
Thanks to God, I have my small group, I have my friends, my parents and
also my boyfriends (xixixixi) that always support me, that always remind me. I
believe everything will be alright with God, no matter what will happen I will
trust and obey Him. And I will wait upon the LORD, that hideth his face from
the house of Jacob, and I will look for Him (Yes 8:17). Because Yes 40:31 said
“But those who trust the LORD will find new strength. They will be strong like
eagles soaring upward on wings; they will walk and run without getting tired”.
Yeah, my love story such a labil story. Fall and then rise, fall again
and rise again, fall and rise, fall and rise untill I’m tired. Although I have
read all the bible or I have finished two books for bible study or I have a
good small group or I am a servant of God or I am a princess of God or X or Y
or Z etc. Thats not guarantee that I will always have an easy live or having a
dicipline relation with Him. I am still a sinner. But Philip 3:12 said “I have not yet reached
my goal, and I am not perfect. But Christ has taken hold of me. So I keep on
running and struggling to take hold of the prize”
Yeah, So I will
keep on running and struggling to take hold of the prize q(^.^)p
by @littlewinda
